Fighting through to silence

Desperately holding on

For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
(Psalm 62:5 ESV)

This is the difficult work of faith – to wait in silence for God alone. Not a wussy, passive silence but rather an active, aggressive laying hold of God while holding down a flighty, fearful heart. An obsessed doggedness to attain the soul’s singular ambition – to be saved through the only option it will accept: I will be saved through faith in Jesus Christ or not at all!

By stubborn choice I cling to Christ, refusing alternative offers of comfort, irrationally trusting the God-man who hung on the tree for what appears impossible (Matthew 19:26). A desperate trust, laying it all on the line with pathetically small odds of making it to the finish line intact – such faith is either complete insanity or utter necessity (Philippians 3:12-14).

For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
(Psalm 62:5 ESV)

This silence, fighting to wait for God alone, is not simply a lack of audible noise. The true silence penetrates deep, to my soul. All of the panicky soul noise must be quietened, fears quelled, a purposeful resisting of anxiety to wait in active stillness for my Savior.

My silence is not to be the anxious falling asleep of a weary disciple (Mark 14:37–40). I can so easily exhaust myself worrying about how I will get through, should I be doing more, what if… For such anxieties Jesus would rebuke me (Matthew 6:27). It seems like the hardest thing in the world to quieten my soul and wait for God alone, I suppose this is why I do not have the spiritual strength of David – I don’t strengthen myself in the Lord (1 Samuel 30:6).

“In repentance and rest you shall be saved;
in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.”
(Isaiah 30:15 ESV)


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2 thoughts on “Fighting through to silence

  1. I am a fellow pursuer of the discipline of silence before God Most High.”All of the panicky soul noise must be quietened, fears quelled, a purposeful resisting of anxiety to wait in active stillness for my Savior.” This expresses piercingly the struggle for silence before God. Thanks for sharing. I am a recent follower of your blog.

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    • Hi Diane,
      Sorry for the delay in responding – our home internet connection has been broken (an enforced silence!). It can be so hard at times to be silent before the Lords can’t it? I often find that the very times I most need to wait quietly for God are the times my heart is anxious and troubled – still very much learning.
      Grace,
      Mike

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